Tag: overcoming self doubt

Amazed and Grateful

OMG. She’s almost ready! We took another sneak peek yesterday of our house and so much more has been done. The sweet brick motor court is completed. Exterior is 95%. And inside, oh, my… I cannot wait to share what’s going on inside. It’s Beautiful.

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I am so very grateful for the life I have, and the Joy that I am a co-creatrix of. In my 20’s, my life was such a story of pain and struggle and desperately seeking to escape my suffering. It was a broken heart and a battered body. It was fear and fight. It was a wish for someone to save me, and it was a wish for something better. Little could I imagine then that Love and the power to change EVERYTHING was not external, but waiting to be discovered inside of me. I promise, it’s also inside of you.

💖🦋 #theblessingsbutterfly #firstthoughts #buildingyourbestlife #inspiration #thereishope #loveyourselffree #selfloveheals #writer #author #speaker

Amazed and Grateful

OMG. She’s almost ready! We took another sneak peek yesterday of our house and so much more has been done. The sweet brick motor court is completed. Exterior is 95%. And inside, oh, my… I cannot wait to share what’s going on inside. It’s Beautiful.

——

I am so very grateful for the life I have, and the Joy that I am a co-creatrix of. In my 20’s, my life was such a story of pain and struggle and desperately seeking to escape my suffering. It was a broken heart and a battered body. It was fear and fight. It was a wish for someone to save me, and it was a wish for something better. Little could I imagine then that Love and the power to change EVERYTHING was not external, but waiting to be discovered inside of me. I promise, it’s also inside of you.

💖🦋 #theblessingsbutterfly #firstthoughts #buildingyourbestlife #inspiration #thereishope #loveyourselffree #selfloveheals #writer #author #speaker

#MondayMantra YES I Freaking Can!

I may be The Blessings Butterfly and love to share the bright side of things, but even I get scared sometimes. 

Yesterday I was overwhelmed by a nasty case of fear and self-doubt. My ego was so scared, so intimidated by the BIG goals that I’ve set that it became downright ugly. I felt that old familiar panic rising in my chest, my eyes wide and filled with tears, my speech jumbled and angry and peppered with swear words.

Oh, did I forget to mention that I was sitting in a restaurant at dinner with my boyfriend at the time this all went down? Yeahhhhh… #awkward

We were talking about my work, and he very innocently asked me some numbers questions and how I was planning to meet them. Not an attack by any means, but my panic button went off inside me.  Tears, tapping fingers, Ugh!  Not my finest moment.   I assured him that he didn’t make me cry. No, it was my own fears that had crept up on me, my own self-doubt that made me cry into my chips & salsa.  We talked there for a few minutes more, and decided to take the conversation home when it became apparent that I was dealing with something more than spicy food. 

When we got back to my house, I showed him my newly completed chalkboards with my big, exciting goals listed out on them, and we talked some more.  He was a rock, calm and steady and sensible. I said, “I just need you to believe in me.” And he said the magic words back to me, “I do believe in you.”  Hugs. Kisses. More hugs, more kisses. 

I spent the rest of the night taking some quiet time for myself and working through the fears and self-doubt.  I reminded myself that I do know what I’m doing, and that I can ask for help at any time as I continue to build my team and pursue my dreams. I’m not quitting on myself, because I can freaking do this.