

Ready for a powerful and positive mindset shift? This #MondayMantra is exactly that: “My obstacles are designed to Redirect and Empower me, not to hold me back.”
The truth is that we will face a variety of obstacles on the way to our goals, but this doesn’t have to be a bad thing! Tests & trials are all part of the game, and their purpose is to sharpen and strengthen us along our path. It’s only a setback if you decide that it is, so take the power back and find the lesson your obstacle is trying to teach you about yourself. You’ve got this!
I may be The Blessings Butterfly and love to share the bright side of things, but even I get scared sometimes.
Yesterday I was overwhelmed by a nasty case of fear and self-doubt. My ego was so scared, so intimidated by the BIG goals that I’ve set that it became downright ugly. I felt that old familiar panic rising in my chest, my eyes wide and filled with tears, my speech jumbled and angry and peppered with swear words.
Oh, did I forget to mention that I was sitting in a restaurant at dinner with my boyfriend at the time this all went down? Yeahhhhh… #awkward
We were talking about my work, and he very innocently asked me some numbers questions and how I was planning to meet them. Not an attack by any means, but my panic button went off inside me. Tears, tapping fingers, Ugh! Not my finest moment. I assured him that he didn’t make me cry. No, it was my own fears that had crept up on me, my own self-doubt that made me cry into my chips & salsa. We talked there for a few minutes more, and decided to take the conversation home when it became apparent that I was dealing with something more than spicy food.
When we got back to my house, I showed him my newly completed chalkboards with my big, exciting goals listed out on them, and we talked some more. He was a rock, calm and steady and sensible. I said, “I just need you to believe in me.” And he said the magic words back to me, “I do believe in you.” Hugs. Kisses. More hugs, more kisses.
I spent the rest of the night taking some quiet time for myself and working through the fears and self-doubt. I reminded myself that I do know what I’m doing, and that I can ask for help at any time as I continue to build my team and pursue my dreams. I’m not quitting on myself, because I can freaking do this.
This year is the year I’m focusing on transformation in my life. I’m looking to create something BIG though. Something deep.
I want to go wayyyyyy beyond “lose ___ pounds blah blah blah” and instead pave a way for people of all body types -including my own- to be empowered, to feel loved, to discover their strength & true beauty.
I’m not trying to be skinny again.
I’m not trying to look like a supermodel or a Victoria’s Secret ad.
I actually love my body as it is, but I really want to FEEL better in it. Have more flexibility, less pain. Increase my strength & endurance. Not have a panic attack when an occasion calls for a fancy dress.
I’m not even remotely interested in starting another gym membership because, sorry, I hate the gym. Always have, and I’m okay with that.
And damn it, I love to eat actual food. I’m all for eating clean and making healthy food choices, but there’s no damn way I’m going to give up things like flavor, texture, variety, chewing…
I KNOW there is a way. I KNOW what I am going to do. And I AM going to celebrate every minute of the journey! Stay tuned for an opportunity to join me!
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